The (Inner) Struggle is Real

This was certainly a week of all the struggles. 

An emotional roller coaster. 

Lot’s of ups and downs. 

It was like, everything that could go wrong, or upset me, did.

I took some time to figure out what was bothering me and then flipped the situation to make it better once I realized how it was affecting me. I don’t like when outside situations have control over my mood for the day, how I feel, and my attitude. Putting things into perspective helps me to figure out why I’m feeling a certain way, so that rather than let it continue to bother me, I can fix and move on from it.

I feel like inner struggles go hand in hand with vulnerability. No one likes feeling vulnerable, so instead we back off, shy away and end up very closed off. Vulnerability is like that miserable feeling you get in the pit of your stomach that won’t go away until something changes – for the better. We have two choices; face it and deal with it or run away from it and shut down.

Well, no chance I’m going with the latter, because I prefer to deal with my emotions rather than to hide behind them – it’s just how I function. Typically, I deal with them by drinking all the wine, getting advice from my girlfriends and talking it out to see how I can make things better.

Yesterday, I read this quote in an elitedaily article and found it so right on to what I was going through earlier in the week, before I decided to face my struggles and make them better.

Our fear of vulnerability seems to stem from our fear of rejection and authenticity. Because of this fear, we spend more time hiding the truth than speaking it.

But my question is, why hide it? If you consider most inner struggles, you feel better once they’re out in the open and you can express them, right?

Why not just be upfront? Let it out. If there are negative effects of being open, honest and expressing yourself, then there’s a good chance you shouldn’t be involved with who or whatever isn’t accepting to your openness.

So….

If you have something to say, say it.

If you want something, go after it.

If you can’t make a decision, figure out where your heart is leading you and always listen to your gut!

If someone doesn’t make an effort for you, don’t make an effort for them – sometimes it’s just not worth it.

If something upsets you, fix it.

If you have regrets, forget about them – you can’t go back there anyway.

If you’re holding on to the past, let it go. If nothings has come of it yet, nothing probably will.

You’ll be amazed at the changes you’ll see by choosing to be open and upfront in situations. There’s really no use in fearing the chances we can take in life.

So, fuck it. Go live a little!


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How The Week Went Down

weekwentHello Darlings!

This week flew by and was filled with a lot of workouts and clean, delicious eats! I started my day with a Triple Grande Soy Latte, which was fabulous!

blog1Let’s get right into it so that I can share some Friday Fashion with you all. :)

Today will mark my fourth CrossFit workout of the week and Sunday will make it five – woohoo! I’m so proud of myself and Ashley for getting in there all week. It’s felt so good to workout hard and sweat. I’m still trying to get comfortable with the bar exercises such as, clean, jerks, snatch, etc., but I know in time it’ll get better!

Last night they had a ‘Throwdown’ and two guys participated in the 2015 CrossFit game workout; 15.1

9-minute AMRAP:
15 toes-to-bars
10 deadlifts
5 snatches
(M 115 lb. / F 75 lb.)

Workout 15.1a

1-rep-max clean and jerk
6-minute time cap

It was awesome to watch and I enjoyed hanging at the gym, having a beer and eating some pizza! It was a fun night with the Glass City CrossFit crew.

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Eats this week were good, thanks to my meal plan! I had the majority of what I had intended and found a new favorite meal, too!

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After my workout the other night, it was 7:45 and I wanted something quick and healthy for dinner. I had some leftovers from Sunday meal prep, so I threw together this odd, but awesome combination:

1/2 sweet potato, tiny bit of quinoa, pinto beans, a dollop of greek yogurt and liquid aminos.

blog3Such a great post-work vegetarian meal! I even packed leftovers for lunch the next day. I know it sounds like an odd combo, but you should definitely try it out!

Ok, now onto some fashion!

Here is a collection of some outfits that I’ve worn and loved recently! Some old pieces, some new, but all fun work outfits!

Looks #1

blog5Black Skinnies 1 – Express
Black Skinnies 2 – The Limited
Chambray Button Up- Gap
Blazer – Forever 21 (such a bargain)
Polka Dot Top – Forever 21

Looks #2 

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I die for these plaid pants!!

Pants – Old Navy
Dress – Gap
Blazer – LC Collecetion; Kohls
Cobalt Skirt – Express
Top – Express

Ok peeps, that’s a wrap. I hope you have a fantastic weekend. I have some fun stuff planned, as well as, a lot of studying – boo!

Until next time…


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Work Fuc@#!% Harder

Holla!

How’s your week going!? Mine is pretty good so far and we’re moving right along — just counting the days and trying to get out of these cold, brutal months.

I started meal planning again this week and it makes such a difference when I have it jotted down to see what and when I can eat. Otherwise, I’m really good at mindlessly snacking. Everyone is different, but I like and need a plan to succeed.

Summer is right around the corner (kind of…not soon enough), but since I have some time to get into killer shape I want, I’m ok with the extra weeks we still have ahead of us.

The plan is… 

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That about sums it up.

Starting school this semester has really taken a toll on the amount of time I spend working out. Now that I’m in a routine, I can take more time to be sure I’m getting my workouts in – even if that means coming to work at 6am, working all day, going to class at night and then studying and meal prepping once I’m home. I’m basically already a robot on autopilot, so why not just keep adding the the plate, huh?!

Thankfully, adding fitness isn’t a big deal because I love it and miss it!

Last week, I laid out my tentative workout plan, which looks like this:

Monday – CrossFit
Tuesday – Lower Body Lift 
Wednesday – CrossFit
Thursday – Upper Body or Cardio FIX
Friday – CrossFit or FIX workout, maybe both?! 
Saturday – Rest – will be much needed 
Sunday – CrossFit/Open Gym

Right now I can only make it CrossFit a few times a week due to school, but come Summer time I’ll be getting in there much more frequently!

I also started a version of 21 Day FIX Extreme this week. I’m not doing it identical to the book, but I am kind of using it as a guide.

Here’s my calendar with meals and workouts for this week: 

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In the bottom right corner is the amount of containers I can have on the FIX plan, which is as follows:

blog12I will be consuming around 1,600 calories since I’m incorporating CrossFit along with the FIX workouts that are included in the program. I started logging them in MyFitness Pal, too!

Clearly I’m going to be utilizing ALL THE RESOURCES! Whatever works, right?!

I’m excited to see how my body changes with adding CrossFit into my life and removing meat again. I know most CrossFit people do Paleo, which includes a crap ton of meat, so I may be doing this differently, but I’m sure there are plenty of CrossFitting veg-heads out there?! If you know of any blogs out there that fit this, please send me their way!

So, what’s your Summer shape-up plan? Any one particular thing? Or perhaps, like me, all the things?! Let’s kick some ass!

Here’s a fun workout to try. You can do it at home or at the gym. ‘TWENTY’ – AMRAP – 20 min!

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Toodles!


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